MY STORY...
My human story... is not so different from your human story. The details may not be the same, but much like you, at a point, I started waking up to the idea that there was more to this life than I was living. Something was missing, yet I couldn't quite put my finger on it. I had my frustrations and worries. I could see all of "the problems" around me, but I couldn't understand why my life was turning out this way. I had often tried to change the people and circumstances around me, but nothing worked. I was missing something and had no clue how to find it. The hardest part was that I felt ashamed, alone, and that it was my fault things weren't working.
Then, through a series of coincidence, divine intervention, serendipity, or as I like to call it "A Loving Mystery"... it was brought to my attention that a number of my important relationships were affected by addiction, including my own. It was the "good news" and the "bad news". The good news was, I FINALLY received the missing piece and my life could change. The "seemingly" bad news, was that I couldn't change other people, I could only change myself.
I'll be honest, I was not familiar with looking at my own behavior patterns because I had spent my whole life, to that point, focusing on others. In theory, it seemed simple enough to take that observational skill set and turn the focus toward me instead of others. In reality, I was resistant (afraid, terrified) to look, and see what I would find, but knew deeply, it was the key to my personal freedom. That was decades ago, and today I can share my story with you openly, because I am no longer bound in shame about the past or in fear of the future.
I didn't do this alone, it took love and support from other caring people who understood and offered hope. One of the key aspects of my recovery was finding a competent and compassionate therapist who understood that I wasn't broken, I simply needed to find the wholeness that was already inside of me... to love and embrace all of it. Through my personal and professional experiences, I see that every step is necessary to find lasting change. That is what I have to offer you... my purpose as your therapist is to serve in love, honor, safety, and compassion as you embark upon your journey to find "your whole self" in conscious awareness.